Moving forward, not moving on

Dear Orla, I don’t think I’ll ever forget the moment I first wrote those two words, almost exactly twenty four hours after you were born.  I woke at home and my eyes immediately fixed on the empty crib beside our bed.  Empty.  Empty crib, empty arms, empty belly.  It’s a feeling that you can only…… Continue reading Moving forward, not moving on


A tale of two births

I can’t quite believe that it has taken me a whole year to write Esme’s birth story.  Maybe it was due to me finding those early months so incredibly overwhelming; maybe it was PND.  Or maybe it was because I have found it difficult to reconcile my feelings towards birth since losing Orla.   The…… Continue reading A tale of two births

Mental health and wellbeing · Uncategorized

Help…..I need somebody (or something)…

  Over the past week or so, I have seen a few worrying examples online of people asking for help for their mental health and having some really difficult and invalidating experiences.  And whilst psychologists do not take a hippocratic oath, I felt that I couldn’t sit back and say nothing, in case I could…… Continue reading Help…..I need somebody (or something)…


Mind the (Mindfulness) Gap

  In January, I completed an 8-week Mindfulness Based Stress Reduction course (MBSR) and during the final session, we were asked to write a letter to ourselves that would be posted in a few months time.  And a few days ago, mine arrived.  I actually couldn’t bring myself to open it initially: I have felt…… Continue reading Mind the (Mindfulness) Gap